But as I sit sun-soaked, staring at newly brilliant hues of autumn leaves set against the clearest Carolina blue sky with windows and doors flung wide, insanity seems a fitting diagnosis. If I can't call this perfection then my percept-o-meter needs some serious re-calibration. So it's not really that.
Winter annoys me. I kid you not, the very thought of it sends shivers all up and down me timbers. I can't help it. This little body of mine wasn't made to function well in frigid temps and don't you dare tell me to "put some meat on your bones." Sheesh, if I had a quarter... It's not that simple and I'm likely to pound YOU for such ludification so don't try me.
Therefore, my story has always been this: It's not that I don't like fall, it's just that I hate what's coming just around the corner so I have trouble enjoying it when I know I'll be miserable soon. And therein lies the real heart of the matter. It's my own stinkin' inability to fully live in the moment with gratitude for the gift it brings. Granted, some moments require deep digging. But, come ON. Days like today are low hanging fruit. So, why let thoughts of tomorrow's potential pain dump buckets of (freezing) rain on today's perfect parade? I mean, seriously.....
For now, I will join my cats on the bedroom floor for a little nap in the afternoon autumn sun. Tomorrow's winter woes will take care of themselves. And who knows? By that time, perhaps I will have mastered this fine discipline of gratitude to the point of actually enjoying a romp in the snow. Seems unlikely, but why not dream big?
I always felt this way, too. I hestitated to rejoice in Fall because the chill in the morning and evening air reminded me that soon enough, I will be cold all day long.
ReplyDeleteThe only saving grace to this is that after 11 long years in Ohio where it is cold SIX full months of the year, (I woke up one Mother's Day morning in Ohio to SNOW on the ground!) at least here it is only cold for about 6 to 8 weeks. THAT, I can rejoice in!
I completely agree with you on the whole winter thing, but I've got to admit.....I do LOVE fall! Fall, with its nip in the air and its beautiful colors, is like the bribe to get us all through what's coming. As Spring is the reward for hanging in there through it all. I know I'm going to miss having seasons....and I'm sure I won't get any sympathy when I complain about the lack of seasons from the land of perpetual sunshine! But I will miss them, and certainly fall and spring the most. Enjoy those autumn naps!
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